Benita
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How do I describe my personality? Even figuring out what my band's music, You and Whose Army? sounds like, is tough. And here, I have to put the character of a homosapien - a being made up of complex definitives - to words.
To make it sound fluffy, I'm a variation of extremes. But the only extreme I don't go to, is that of anger. Which includes being fiilled with thoughts of murder, suicide, wishing that someone else will fall into a pithole filled with hungry rats, etc. You get the idea.
Fuming and swearing will never solve things. It only raises chances of high blood pressure, heart attack and other harmful circumstances you may find yourself in. So (now) I usually run away, shut up or try to mediate. What happened last time? My smart mouth only gets me into trouble. Not that I try to pick fights; I often unwittingly retort in manners that cut right through the person's ego.
I really don't like fights. I only liked to show that I'm stronger. Or that I win.
That was then.
Some things now still apply, like my stubborness. I seldom give up halfway, unless I get lazy. Lazy to persevere (usually for years) before I reach my goal. Which has led to me not completing my piano studies just one year before the Grade 8 exam. So now, technically I'm a Grade 6. Or my violin studies, ditto. I can blame the sudden financial situation that I was found in, but I refuse to do so. I admit. I was lazy, and still am.
This is off topic, but I must add that certificates aren't everything. I know of people who practice exam repetoire for months before taking their exams. And even after obtaining their certificates, can't play by the ear, have poor technique, nor can they teach.
I'm not trying to be hoity-toity. I don't blame them, because that is the fault of the piano teacher. Or even parents who only care about taking exams (I've come across such), so that they don't have to spend so much on piano fees. But I've also come across parents who want their child to learn music to enjoy music. And I respect that.
I'm getting lazy, so I shall rest here for now. I've got other work to do. If you happen to read this now, check back again next time then.
